Spirit in the sky, listen to your children sing. Written in the stars, a million miles away, there’s a message from you.
I have to keep screaming until they hear me out.
SPONGE.
Absorbing it all. Soaking it up. Momentarily clogging up the pores of my being– my brain. and my ♥ .
Yesterday, it all started with three numbers:
…608
And then a sit down dinner at 4845 Chelmsbury. Complete with the holding of 10 hands and 1 prayer. Full of eats, drinks and merriness.
Followed by that thing that happens on occasion at the most arbitrary of times– unscheduled, unexpected, unprepared and completely consumed. And drenched.
Like a SPONGE.
The only way I know how to explain it is this: A blip in the science of time. A portal into something outside of my soul and inside of my maker’s. The abc’s of what it must be like: afflicted, burdened and consumed. It’s not human. It’s spiritual. And for a moment, every fiber of my being is broken and given an opportunity to experience the magnitude of what he must feel.
For that moment, i am: sobbing, heavy burdened, abandoned, broken, crippled and ridden with intense, all-consuming pain. Pain that hurts so deeply that you no longer can feel it. And that’s when i scream to Him until He hears me because I (think) I can no longer bare it. I scream at Him to take me home. I scream at Him to come back for us and end it all. End the goodbyes, end the heartache, end the distance, end the loneliness, end the evil, end it. And I’m angry. I’m angry because I don’t understand why everyone I love can’t (be in the same place with me. United. Together. Forever. In one, single house).
And that’s when the resolution comes. Right when I’m on the edge of glory. Right when I (think) I might explode and/or implode the countless cells that make up this body my soul resides within….
I realize.
I’ve experienced for a moment, outside the walls of TIME, a portal into something OUTSIDE of MY SOUL and INSIDE my maker’s, what HE is, in fact, feeling.
I am feeling it. I am feeling His very, all-consuming anguish. I’m being given an opportunity to experience and understand His
LOVE & MERCY.
There are still goodbyes because he’s waiting on EVERYONE to make the decision to say hello to him.
There is still distance because we haven’t arrived into that room where we’re all, at last, TOGETHER.
And He hasn’t returned yet because He LOVES you, precious child. He loves you enough to let you endure all the loneliness, and the heartbreak, and the pain, and the torture, and the depression, and the injustice, and the evil. Why? Because He’ll let the dark continue until we’ve been shown the light.
He wants to be absolutely sure we’ve each been given MULTIPLE chances to choose Him.
He wants to make sure he can capture as many souls as He can with His love.
So when he returns to say hello, he’ll have everyone that He LOVES (in the same place with Him. United. Together. Forever. In one, single house).
Brothers and sisters, let’s be strong & hold on. And go out to wherever we are in this world and help Him bring every. single. soul. out of the darkness. The quicker we do this, the quicker we can ALL be in the same place. with Him. United. Together. Forever.
